It has been an emotional roller coaster ever since i started working in VT.
First was the cultural shock. The environment was sooo quiet I bet you can even hear a pin drop on the carpet. There was no laughter and pple chatting like wds. I was sitting away from the other designers for the 1st 2 weeks because my pc hadn’t arrived. So basically i was sitting alone. Having working in a UK/US influenced company for 2.5 yrs I probably forgot how its like to work in a local company. From the way you handle stuffs to the way you communicate. It’s almost totally different.
Then was the workload and tight deadlines. It was horrible working on a CRT monitor that is like almost dead, working with a new client and within a real tight deadline while multi-tasking other smaller projs. I couldn’t take the pressure and the late nights.
That was my 1st month and it was really horrible. Plus piggy was in Aus then, so there wasn’t anyone there to support me emotionally.
Things took for a turn after the 2nd month.
Everything seems to fall into place and some of my clients were pretty pleased with my work. Made friends. Got confirmed. Promoted to senior. Had a chance to lead. Won the star player award.
But now… I’m pretty confused on what should I do next. Hearing things from my colleagues. Pple leaving… The ever heavy workload.
ARGH.
For the 1st time I had 9 projects on hand!! NINE!!! I was so pissed & stressed today!
But then i wasn’t ready to leave… felt that I hadn’t learn enough. Felt that I hadn’t achieve much before moving on.
Don’t get me wrong, I nvr regretted leaving wds. Piggy & me felt that leaving wds was a great choice because basically.. I wasn’t progressing in any way and I’m not cut out for politics. I don’t enjoy being mean & sarcastic, plotting against fellow colleagues or claiming someone else’s credits. But I do missed my dear ex colleagues!
Sigh. SO what should I do?